Hidden tears 😢

What talk about there alot when feel like can not do anybody with my life just like the person I with thing seem any good to him do things for everybody in the home wash and dry clean the house up there time do get lazy say call me name not really do so much around everybody eles what about the only time got time for myself when wake up take shower  that only time his mood change nice to me when get my check 3rd of month had almost now only 145 did have 307 now very low things very hard on me try be there for his children  ...if things don't work between me and him don't know where go don't have place go to same time been with this person over year now been there for him and his children don't if me and him don't work out idk what tell anyone but hide me from people don't post on fb or like hide shit from when fine get me say being petty in way yes and no but the one been help every since April more then all his woman help him buy car yeah pay me back things not always good ....in way feel like being use same time sit keep take his shit the way he treat me ..ungrateful  person .....take my money do whatever the hell he want not marry to him